we’re here. i’m here. i’m in NC. i’m no longer in NYC. and it’s different and yet … the same.
i’ve been here since february, and while i’ve been really busy with work – busy enough to not want to sit at a computer once i get home, the real reason i haven’t been blogging is because i’ve been struggling. when i can’t write with full honesty i rebel. it’s like a lot of other things in my life that have gotten me in trouble – i’m not always the best at glossing over the truth. but the real truth is not something i’m sure i’m comfortable with everyone knowing. and, frankly, i’ve not always dealt well with drama.
the real truth, for most people, often contains pain and shame and the things that low self esteem are made of, and they’re very difficult to share with the world. and my real truth contains all of those things. the real reason that i haven’t been writing is because the real truth that i want desperately to write about feels bad. the last thing i discovered before leaving brooklyn as my home is that i’ve trained myself to not feel bad feelings. or even go anywhere near them. i think this is largely because of the nature of the things i’ve experienced.
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i just spent about 2 weeks in north carolina to train for my new job with this SWEET social media management software company called expion. (i’m so very excited about working there, but that’s a story for another post, although it’s closely related, okay moving on.) (oh, and bee tee dubs, if you work in social media or work for a really big brand, they might be interested in the tool. just get in touch with me, and i’ll be happy to give you the low down on who we’re good for, (we’ve been really, REALLY good for loads of gigantic brands, and we’re only getting better) and let’s see how we can help you.) ok so back to the wardrobe topic. *phew*
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tuesdays is still weigh-in day, but i’ve been really busy, so obviously i haven’t shared how far i’ve come since i posted the first weigh-in day on jan 29. i haven’t really come far at all in the weight department. in fact, after having lost a few more lbs, i gained them back over the last week. i’m struggling, as usual. i’ve been struggling at the same weight for so long now that i can’t remember how long it’s been. there have been so many false starts. i get caught up in living life and don’t track my food or plan things, and then i just find myself eating more than i really actually want of something that’s not really that tasty. sometimes eating is just a knee-jerk reaction for me.
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i’m not sure that any of the #prabalfortarget items will fit me because, like most everything that target does in collaboration with big name designers, it doesn’t come in plus size. i still think the looks from the #prabalfortarget collection are lovely, and i’ll probably still be found at a target somewhere trying a lot of them on. because damn the size on the label! who knows if it’ll fit or not. that being said, i thought i’d share my favorite looks from the collection here. if you shop the prabal gurung for target collection and spend more than $50, you get free shipping.
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if you’re craving a mexican meal, or maybe you need some fresh protein in your life, this is the meal to make. it would have a lot fewer points if the serving was smaller (duh), and if it didn’t have 1/3 cup of olive oil in the dressing, but i eat this as a main meal, and i don’t think the olive oil is that bad for you … even if it does have a lot of points! it’s got yummy black beans, corn, fresh tomatoes, bell pepper and onions, loads of cilantro and spices. get the recipe in this post!
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who am i? petey pab motha … oops @nettaP. southern with a side of city: hush puppies and leather jackets.
i love to talk, first of all. which is why i write the content on this blog. i process the world through words and laughter. my second love is probably technology because it brings laughter and discussion and connection. and my third love is the pursuit of becoming a stronger individual while respecting my strong need for justice.
i'm learning to be myself faithfully and to trust myself with confidence.
i write a lot about being fat and feelings. i also write a lot about food and fitness. and i also write about fashion because it can be hard to clothe yourself appropriately at every hour of your life.
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